Sunday, February 25, 2007
i had my first soccer match today. i was so nervous. i couldnt sleep at all, which is why i'm so tired today. and then the bad thing happened. my period started. so period + nervousness + cold drink + stupidity to drink cold water = bad bad stomach ache. but i managed to hold on throughout the day. first match was against nus which we drew 0-0. (i played left wing.) they were dominating throughout and we were almost always playing defensive. i was quite blur because i didnt know if i should stay or go back and defend, should i run there and tackle, should i run that far up, and blah.. endless worries for me, made me very stressed and pissed with myself. second match was against rp. i do not like them because they kept hitting my v-----. do i look like a guy to you? now i know why guys have guards for the area around there. (for the first half i played right back, and second half i played right forward.) their goal was a fluke. DIE DIE DIE! but it was still a goal. fishing shit. we were saved by a very nice free kick though and the game ended 1-1. ref is blind i tell you. he didnt see the other handball. he needs specs. REFEREE KAYU! ):third match was against njc. (i played right forward.) wasted opportunities. passing to opponents. i have no idea what i'm doing. confused with my position. flattened b**bs when chesting the ball. (i am sad. there's dumb and dumber, now there's small and smaller.) running up down left right like a monkey. tired i am. and there's fishing school tmr. well. it ended 0-0. and we got third in our group so we couldn't move on. i hate to lose. i really really hate to. DIE DIE DIE!i think the worst outcome is to draw. to neither win nor lose. to be so close and yet not at all. to have this feeling. if only i did this, if only i did that. that sucks. i am sad but happy. makes sense? no. happy because i feel that we did pretty well. sad because we didnt make the cut, when i really thought we could and should have. i love my soccer team mates. (although i am not very sociable and have probably only one friend there.) make senses? no, didnt think so.. D:
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